It's Sunday again and the weeks seem to be going faster and faster as the school year comes to an end. Daniel only has one final left and I have basically the month of May.
April was an interesting one. There were lots of highs and lows to deal with. We celebrated a few birthdays and my brother's wedding, we both landed jobs (more info to come!), and we got to participate in some fun things with our church community. On the other hand, we've been dealing with some other things, like my own bout of bad news, the challenges of life changes, and the tiredness of the semester.
But April was good for me. It was stretching, which can be painful but is ultimately worth it. You may have read my post earlier last month about how it's okay to not be okay, and that kind of sums up the month for me. I'm growing in many areas of my life and it's okay if that looks messy. It's okay if I cry, it's okay if I need a minute to just do nothing, it's okay if I let go of some things to focus on others. Basically, it's okay if I slow down.
Since you've been hearing from me here less frequently lately, I wanted to share a bit about what some of those areas have been and what I've been doing with my time. That feels a bit scary for some reason? But I just want to share what my life has looked like the past month or so.
The past few months have felt like a lot of preparing for me. Lately I've felt like I'm in a constant mode of rearranging and refining our apartment, even though we're nearing 5 months of living here. Part of that has to do with the minimalism challenge I attempted in April that I'm still kind of working through. And maybe 5 months really isn't as long as I think?
I've also been preparing a lot for my upcoming job, which is teaching kindergarten in the fall (yay!). I'm beyond excited for this stage of my life to finally be here! I'm stock-piling activities as well as making some of my own, so that has been a small bit of my time in the evenings recently. I really can't wait to put my classroom together.
Beyond what I can go ahead and tangibly prepare, I've been doing a lot of dreaming of what's ahead. Of course, I probably have lots of notions about teaching that won't work exactly as imagined, but it's still fun to think creatively about what I hope my classroom will be like.
As well as dreaming of teaching, I've also been dreaming of the future in general - where we'll go when we leave Waco, what our first actual home will look like, what our children will be like.
Babies. My pondering has been filled with lots and lots of babies. Just to be honest.
I've also been dreaming up summer plans and travel destinations, although nothing solid just yet.
Along with kindergarten activities, I've been creating different little things here and there, from some simple Peter Rabbit drawings for my niece's birthday party to paintings for my Etsy shop. You may have also seen my potato stamping project, which was a lot of fun. I can't say I've made anything too earth shattering as of late, but doodling in my journal and painting flowers onto sticker paper has been somewhat therapeutic for me. Creating can be more about the process than the outcome, no?
Part of slowing down for me has meant being okay with not having a giant project to chew on. The result has been some tiny and refreshing bursts of creativity.
To be real, a lot of this past month has just been existing. Processing the changes that are taking place in my life, thinking through things, and being okay with doing absolutely nothing at times. Some evenings are blanketed with Netflix binges and Pinterest scrolling. Others with walks to the coffee shop. Others still with turning in for the night even earlier than usual.
Some days I get home from work and don't feel like doing much of anything but sit on the couch with Daniel, but I think that's okay sometimes. I've been sort of intrigued with this idea of "slow living" that's been buzzing around on my internet feeds, so we'll see where that exploring takes me. I definitely know that living life slowly and intentionally is not the same as sitting around lethargically. I'm working through getting to a point where that feeling of wanting to sit idly comes less frequently.
And honestly it already is. May is off to a good start. April was odd, but through the groaning growing it's put a little pep in my step for the new month ahead. I feel like the Lord is doing something new in my heart, and I'm eager to know more.
That's just a little update on what life has been like lately, however scattered it may have come across. I've been preparing, dreaming, creating, and being. I've been slowing down a little at a time, taking some extra moments to figure out this whole adult thing. I don't know that it's figure-out-able, but the process is sure interesting.
What's your life been looking like lately? I'd love to hear!
Recent graduate + Wife
+ Instructional aide
+ Coffee lover + Artist
I'm a twenty-something trying to figure out this adult thing and using my spare time to run an art shop on Etsy and write a blog about life, art, education, and travel.